Life can feel like a constant battle against preconceptions; those ideas we cling to about who we are. They are silent but stubborn beliefs that limit what’s possible for us. They act like invisible walls, cutting us off from the full truth and experience of being human. Fear and doubt, shame and embarrassment, failure and rejection – they all create barriers to becoming our freest, most authentic Bigger Selves. But I’ve learned that every obstacle is also an opportunity to overcome, and build a solid foundation of strength and self-trust. Every step forward brings sincerity and self-awareness. Every hard-fought battle unlocks a bit more of that potential for growth.

In my life, I’ve stumbled and struggled through pain and setbacks. Following that, it’s been my tendency to get stuck in needing others to see and understand those struggles. But in doing that, I became attached to the identity that the pain had created and in a way became trapped in the past. With time the origin of that pain became lost but the resulting habits and ideas remained with me, sticking around much longer then the memory itself. What matters next for healing and growth is the target ahead—the clear, bright vision of the future I want to create for myself and the person that I want to become. So we just need to set the right goal and direction and make the commitment to the work that’ll get us there. Though everyone’s pain is uniquely theirs, and the depths we can sink to might differ, I believe the desire to heal and grow is universal.

And for that intention, having the right relationships matter more than anything. Surrounding ourselves with people who share our values, who are also committed to growth, is so essential. That’s what makes the Harmony Meditation, so special. It’s not just a practice; it’s a community, a space where people are uncompromising in their pursuit of authentic growth, through healing and empowerment practices.

For me, I’ve recently been working with my teacher, Master Choi on a kind of personalized “undoing” program consisting of 3 R steps – Reframing, Recharging, Resetting. Together, we’ve been peeling back the layers of assumptions and preconceptions I’ve held about myself. Without going into too much detail, we broke down my ideas around relationships, health, emotional influence, etc… What I’ve come to see is that so much of how I viewed the world wasn’t reality; it was a distorted lens shaped by fear and past experiences. But more importantly, the work isn’t just about digging into these issues; it’s also requires taking right meaningful action to do the “undo”; to recharge and reset. So pairing the deep self-inquiry with ZEN energy work has been a powerful means for realizing actual self-growth.

That’s why I’m so excited about the upcoming The Bigger Self Project workshops. It’s a new special meditation course being offered at Harmony Meditation for anyone ready to make a sincere New Year’s resolution. It looks to be a really focused and powerful workshop geared toward anyone who wants to reset and energize, on their way toward reaching for their brighter future. Which is especially important to me right now as I’m transitioning in my professional career and personal life with newfound conviction. I really hope this program can find those who are looking for and will recognize the value that it offers. These are the values that I want to share with anybody else trying to find what they need most, working to sort themselves out and find the direction and methods that will help them get the most out of this incredible life.

This morning, I started my day with my Zen practice routine, after which I laid down to rest for a minute. And that’s when I experienced a profound release deep in my abdomen. It felt as though a heavy knot of tension had suddenly dissolved in a single, powerful breath. My breathing became deeper and more relaxed, and an intense sense of calm washed over me, a kind of peace I hadn’t felt in a long time.

I can compare the sensation to that instant relief you feel when after a long flu, your nasal passages finally clear, or when your ears pop, and the world becomes crispy and audible again. But this was deeper and more profound. It was a release that radiated from my core, and its warmth seemed to flow throughout my entire body.

A few nights ago, I had a vivid dream that has lingered in my mind since. In the dream, I became acutely aware that I was dreaming. I was walking along a beautiful lakeside landscape when everything suddenly became blurry, as if my vision had failed me. In the dream, I thought, “If this is my dream, then I should be able to see clearly.” And in that instant, everything snapped into focus. A visual clarity that was much sharper and clearer then even in my waking life.

I continued walking up a path until I came across a carving of an elephant. As I gazed at the carving, I noticed a swirling ball of energy emanating from it’s face. As I focused on it, I felt that same swirling energy begin to rise within me, and it became so powerful that it jolted me awake. I was up now but that energy stayed with me until I fell asleep again.

I’ve always tried to dissect experiences like these, and understand the mechanics behind them. But in this case, I’ve had to accept that I don’t really know what’s happening or how it works. Is it an ability that I’ve been honing through my ZEN practice? Did I truly choose to see clearly in my dream? Did I consciously release that heaviness from my abdomen, or did it happen on its own, as a result of the mindfulness and inner work I’ve been doing at the Harmony center?

Perhaps, like the analogy of congested nasal passages clearing, it’s all a matter of healing. Maybe this is my natural state, and I’ve been “sick” for so long that I had forgotten what normal even feels like. It’s only now, after this experience, that I can see just how far from that natural state I have been. And maybe, the process of letting go and releasing has allowed me to experience a deeper sense of peace that’s always been there, waiting for me to come back to it.